It has been six months since our last post, while that one was hard enough to write, I will do it again. As we all know the Randall's aren't exactly the most open about their lives with other people, or with each other for that matter, one I am sure mom and dad would wish was not the case. I hope and am sure some of you wonder about our progress in having a family since Deanne and I are the smallest of the bunch. I am sad to report that after the treatment and 3 months of trying again with help we have not been able to have success. This whole process comes at a lot of cost, mentally, financially, and even throws its punches spiritually at times, but we will not waver. It has been a learning process and a lot of growth, at least for me. We put our trust in God and hold fast to the promises he has made to us through priesthood blessings. The hard part is waiting for the promised blessings come to pass. We have virtually done everything in our means to do what we can, and the rest is up to the Lord. It is amazing how the passage of time helps you look back and see the things that happen and the good that came from them seem so much clearer. We may have a few more times of trying, and from there we don't really know the next steps, but we will take care of that as it comes.
Now for the upside of life, school is about to get out in a couple of weeks. Deanne has gotten a job at the college in a temporary position, but they like her so much they are working to get her on full time and raise her pay. We are seriously contemplating and planning for me to quit my job soon, so some other sucker can take it. I really do feel that way about it. And it makes me excited to think about quiting. I am getting with in a year of graduating if I quit and I want to get it done. This is a step we feel we are and need to take- this again requires a lot of trust in the Lord as it concerns me to do this. Deanne has been able to buy lots of little nick knacks for our apartment (this makes her happy and is kind of her escape from the heartache). Deanne has a cousin getting married so she gets to take a trip out to Utah for the wedding in about 3 weeks. We get to take a vacation in July and see everyone, and we look forward to getting away and spending time with all of you. Also in July we will be celebrating our 6th wedding anniversary. Oh how time flies.
Sorry this ended up being so long. So in short the both of us are doing well and are generally happy, but often wishing for one more to add to it. Love you all.
Josh and Deanne
3 comments:
Ah Josh!!! You are in our prayers almost every night. We love you guys.
I think you and I are in the same boat! We don't know how not to work! In our minds it doesn't make sense not to work!
Thanks for you heartfelt post!
I know everything will work out for you two, how, I am not at all sure, but I am sure it will. Keep smiling and buying knick knacks :)
We are sorry to hear about your struggles. Danielle and I both understand the feelings your are having. We also struggled in starting a family and it took 5 years before finally having Erin. We even started down the road towards adoption.
We understand your disappointment, and frustration at the situation and hopefully everything will work out, but if it doesn't Heavenly Father has a different plan for you two. Either way he will bless you with the happiness and fulfillment you are looking for.
We love you both and will keep you in our prayers.
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